For God-seekers/Truth-seekers, life is a pilgrimage.

We journey through each phase of our earthly life, choosing pathways we think will lead us to our destination . . . only to face that fork on the road that gives us pause. Those who don’t wish to stray from ‘the familiar’ continue on the same convenient and comfortable pathway; after all, they have been convinced that the map they’ve depended on has been reliable. Few dare to stray into the unknown, unbeaten path.


Thankfully, many of us did and have been blessed for doing so, for in checking what was on the “other pathway” that diverged from the road widely travelled—the beaten path—we learned, we matured, we became progressively more discerning; best of all, we got biblically educated!


Some of us have spent almost a lifetime journeying toward that “Sacred Place” where we expect to meet the ONE TRUE GOD. On that journey, we made a thoughtful decision every time we faced a fork on the road. That fork showed up not once, not twice, but thrice on this pilgrimage.


Some of us started out as children inheriting the religious choices of our parents, baptized in the Roman Catholic Church; then, discontented with mere tradition, ritual and unquestioned dogma, we turned to seeking God in what we were told contained His complete revelation—The Christian Bible.


So we ended up in one of the “protestant” sects or turned to one of the many evangelical fellowships where we listened to preachings from “The Word of God”, except much of that preaching/teaching focused only on the newer testament. Many of us organized into weekly bible study groups and got involved in churches/fellowships.


While comfortable and content in following that map provided by The Christian Bible, later in the journey, we faced yet another fork on the road. This time, the alternative led us to a closer look into the neglected part of the Christian Bible —the so-called “Old” Testament. Messianic Theology introduced us to the Hebraic roots of our Christian Faith.


Well and good, most of us felt we had finally arrived. . .only to encounter one more fork on the road . . . one that challenged us not only to venture more deeply into the foundational Hebrew Scriptures on which the supposedly newer testament was based, but also to question the very foundations of our Christian heritage.


It is this latter investigation that shook up the very core of our God-search, for we discovered that what we had unquestioningly accepted as God-given Truth turned out to be man-made doctrine hatched in mere councils of men within the first three centuries of millennium 4 in the Biblical reckoning of time, though in the Gregorian calendar, it would be the first thousand years after the supposed birth of Christianity’s Savior — Jesus Christ.


Jesus of Nazareth, Yeshua–like any Jew in his time —was raised and educated in the Hebrew Scriptures, lived Torah, worshipped the God of Israel. Other than that, there isn’t much written in historical records about this man; much of what we know about him comes from “New” Testament books.


We who have awakened to the consistent message of the Hebrew Scriptures about the self-revelation of the God on Sinai have followed Jesus out of Christianity into his faith in Israel’s God, whose self-revealed Name is YHWH. The faith of Jesus is not the same as faith in Jesus. With all due respect, this is where we now depart from our former Christ-centered colleagues, friends, teachers and pastors. Contrary to misunderstandings about our faith, we are not joining Judaism; we are gentiles drawn to the God of Abraham, Moses, Israel, and Jesus of history.


Our former co-travellers on this journey [committed and dedicated Christ-worshippers] who are befuddled at our turnabout from a whole belief system we had embraced all our lives, have understandably reacted in various ways—ranging from pity that we’ve lost our salvation, to active resistance by warning others and labelling us “apostates”, “bastards” and “anti-christs”. Such negative reactions hardly threaten our resolve to continue on this last and final lap of our pilgrimage.


This pathway has led us back to the place of Divine Revelation:

  • geographically, that place is Mount Sinai;
  • historically, that time is recorded in Exodus . .
  • literarily, that “place” is the repository of the True Revelation—the Hebrew Scriptures, the TNK, but specifically the TORAH.

The journey’s length depends on the God-seeker . . . for the True Revelator had given His directions as early as that historical point in time to Moses and the mixed multitude. That Revelation has been accessible to all mankind for 6 millennia now, but it has taken each one of us almost a lifetime to get to it.



That is a question each one must answer for himself.

There is nothing to lose in pursuing this path. We all have already known the other side; all our lives have been spent on studying its theological/scriptural/doctrinal implications and conclusions.


All we can say at this point is — none of us regret ever returning to the original Way. We wish we had discovered this Way so much earlier, so that we could have worshipped, served, and made known the One True God in the spring instead of the autumn of our lives. It is not too late for the youth among us; we trust they will carry on our legacy.


Blessed be the God we have come to know, love and serve—His Name is YHWH.


In behalf of Sinai 6000 Core Community,







Wings of the Wind

Death is a painful subject that many people wish to avoid. No intention to be gruesome but really, there is no denying the fact that that is the destination that we all share. Famous movie actor Woody Allen once quipped, I’d like to attain immortality by not dying. If only that were possible, what a relief it would bring many. But it is not. It is one of those things we start thinking about when we face a life threatening crisis, be it a disease, an accident or even reaching the winter season of life. Certainly it will come but how prepared we are puts us in a dilemma.


I, for one, was not ready. Death was a monster that horrified me. I married a pilot whose risky career faced that eventuality anytime. I could not bear the thought of losing him nor any of the people I love.

In 1979, the untimely death of my Dad hit me with a big blow. The most influential person in my life was gone. In my grief, I could not find any solace though I pretended to be strong. Where shall I find the strength to comfort this reality? Who was there guide me? I knew God has the answers but where do I find Him? I certainly did not find Him in the religion of my birth. To fill this vacuum, I accepted the suggestion of friends from Campus Crusade to open a regular bible study in our home. I was a staunch Catholic and I launched into the bible study with a skeptical mind. But the Bible proved me wrong. The bible study became the beginning of my lifetime pursuit of intimacy with God. Like everyone else, I acknowledged that I was indeed a sinner and needed forgiveness from God. However I was baffled with the idea that Jesus took responsibility for my sins and died on my behalf. Was I not supposed to be responsible for my sinful actions? But like everyone else , I humbled myself in repentance and gratefully accepted salvation in Jesus. By faith I became born again. Learning Scriptures produced a radical change in my life and outlook.


Foremost, prayers to my favorite saints now focused exclusively on the Triune God of Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Oftentimes though, it confused me whom to address my prayers, since each Person of the Trinity performed specialized functions. While other denominations emphasized prayers to the Holy Spirit, my evangelical faith centered on Jesus. Being the practical person that I was, I played safe and prayed to God the Father, Whom I perceived as the Chairman of the Board of the Trinity. I never shared this perplexity with anyone, not even to my husband. It was between God and me and I prayed that someday, He will show me some answers.


Another thing that bothered me was the practice of calling for Christ’s imminent return to extinguish personal troubles. I found that dumb, cowardly and irresponsible. Unlike animals, God created man with the intelligence to process circumstances that will bring out a better change in our character. Feeling all alone with my questions, I proceeded on in my Christian walk, living the best as I could to give honor and glory to God. But my longing left me disquieted in spirit like the deer pants for the living water.


Then I stumbled into the doctrine of the Sovereignty of God and the accountability of man. This teaching made sense to me and I became excited in my spirit. Surely this confirmed that God did not make me into a robot. Robots do not have the ability to reason out with God. The Patriarch Abraham did and so did Moses, David, Solomon, Job and many others. God reasoned with them and they enjoyed His intimate fellowship. That God gave man the freedom to be responsible for his choices became the underlying motivation for my faith journey. My late father was never a religious man but I saw that he was a righteous man in every way. One time, I mustered the boldness to ask him why he never joined us in church. He said that he prayed directly to God and if he needed to confess, he confessed directly to God. God is God and he does not need any mediators. Shocked at his theology, I kept this quietly in my heart. At the time of his death, I was afflicted with much grief because I perceived his convictions to be heretical.


In the 30 years of my Christian life, my husband and I have taken an active part in pioneering 3 evangelical churches and 3 Christian schools. Church ministries were our source of fulfillment but the thirst for intimacy with God lingered on. It seemed to burrow on my spirit.


During a conference held in Baguio City, it dawned on me that Jesus was a Jew. He was raised and educated in the Torah in the historical culture and setting of the land of Biblical Israel. How could I have missed that detail all these years? The thrust of the conference encouraged us to study the Hebrew roots of our Christian faith.


Back in Manila, we joined a group that met every Jewish Sabbath for Torah study. No rabbi was present to teach us but we all took the responsibility to research and learn from each other. The studies were thorough and the lively discussions exhilarated my spirit. I felt I was connecting with the Biblical God of Israel, His people and His land. I was beginning to understand the God that Jesus was pointing to in his teachings. But as our group deepened in our study, I found contradictory teachings between the Old and New Testament that shook my spiritual position. First of all, if God declared Himself in theTorah that He is One and Indivisible, why then was I taught to believe in a divisible Trinitarian God?

Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God, the Lord is One. You shall love the Lord you God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all you might.

[Deuteronomy 6:4-9, 11:13:21 and NumberS 15:37-41]


Before Me there was no god formed, nor shall there be after Me. I, even, I am YHWH, and besides Me, there is no Savior. [Isaiah 43:10]


Secondly, If human sacrifice is so horrible a concept to God that it did not even come into His mind according to Jeremiah 19:4-6, Ezekiel 16:20 and Psalm 106, why then did the apostle Paul teach in Romans 3:25 that Jesus sacrificed himself as the propitiation for our sins through faith in his blood.


Thirdly, if God can directly forgive our sins, what then is the value of Christ’s sacrifice on the cross?


  • You do not delight in sacrifice or I would bring it; you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings. The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken spirit and contrite heart, O God you will not despise. Psalm [51:16-17]
  • He prays to God and finds favor with him, he sees God™s face and shouts for joy; he is restored by God to his righteous state.  [Job 33:26]
  • If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land. [2 Chronicles 7:14]

Finally, if the Bible is clear and consistent that no one can die for the sins of another, that one person’s guilt cannot be forgiven because of another person’s death, why then did Jesus die for us?


The fathers shall not be put to death for the children, neither shall the children be put to death for the father. Every man shall be put to death for his own sin. [Deut.24:16]



These contradictions became my friends because in them, I found the truth. As I continue to walk in the joy of knowing the God of Abraham, Isaac and Israel, I experience so much freedom along the way. I agree with the prophet Jeremiah when he wrote in 33:2-3,


I call unto Him and He answers Me and tells me great and mighty things which I do not know.


Surprisingly, the fear of death does not bother me anymore. I don’t know why.  Perhaps it is because I am now enjoying a deep fellowship with God in His Torah, His blueprint for life.

Truly,  if from there you seek the Eternal your God, you will find Him if you look for Him with all your heart and with all your soul. [Deut. 4:29]

In the One Indivisible God, I found my life and I found my peace. My Dad was right after all.












My life of faith in the LORD is a journey. God leads me to a path when I am ready to walk on it.


My journey began as a young girl in my school where the nuns taught me that the sole reason for life is to glorify God and to be happy with HIM forever in the next. To achieve this, it meant to obey God and to obey all the commandments of the Church. This I did to the utmost.


Many years later, as a young married woman, I became a “born again Christian”. In my enthusiasm to serve the LORD, I took another step. I enrolled in a Christian seminary where I got my Masters Degree in Church Studies. Studying the Word of God, a question in my mind would always crop up: “Why did Jesus have to die for my sins?” And always the answer was: Jesus is the only way of salvation, God has provided for us to take. As taught by my professors, the New Testament attests to this, backed by Old Testament prophecies. This answer, though it did not satisfy me, kept me quiet.


Then, another path opened up for me. A missionary friend and teacher introduced me to a more thorough study of the Old Testament scriptures, emphasizing that the scriptures should be studied with a Hebrew mindset because the Hebrew Scriptures were given to the Jews, for the Jews, and written by Jews, as inspired by the Spirit of God. This, I realized, was true so that I embraced the Hebrew Scriptures with all of my mind, heart, and soul. The Hebrew Scriptures contain all the Truths that YAHWEH our God, has revealed for mankind to know and to follow.


The Word of God says, You will seek me and find me, when you search for me with all of your heart.”  In my search for Truth and in my desire to know more about the GOD I worship, the LORD allowed me to take another journey. Confined for seven weeks on my bed, with only the Bible, books and the internet for companions, the LORD, through His Spirit led me to the Truth: that there is only ONE TRUE GOD, the GOD of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, as He revealed in the Hebrew Scriptures.


Why I now do not acknowledge Jesus as my savior and Lord is because of knowing this truth. I believe, trust, and submit myself to the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob. I will know Him and follow Him through how He has revealed Himself in the Tanach. I am thankful that my faith in Him is justified by knowledge in the veracity and witness of His revealed Word throughout the ages. This faith gives me the subjective trust that gives me eyes to see and a heart to believe that YAHWEH guides me in believing that what He says in the Tanach is true.


What about eternal consequences? I will claim Psalm 51, specially verses 16-17:


“For You do not desire sacrifice, or else I would give it.
You do not delight in burnt offering.
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit.
A broken spirit and a contrite heart,
These, O God, You will not despise.”


I believe these words were true then and is still true now. And if true that Jesus points everyone to the Father, then He would be most happy that I go to the Father, for I believe He would never compete with the Father, if he is a true son.


So, this is where I am now. My full devotion is to the One True God, of both Jews and Gentiles. I am and will always be a God-fearer.